Having a mommy moment…

You think it gets easier and somehow it just doesn’t.  Tomorrow we’re taking Sophie to see the urologist to get the result of her recent ultrasound.  Lots of drama involved getting to the appointment (which required the MAMA to come out to help get us an appointment this month) but whatever the result are – we’re ready.  I’m thinking it’s probably not good news given the “ominous” we have results message from Packard but I guess it is what it is and here we are.
For whatever reason, as she’s developed, Sophie’s brain injury becomes more and more a worry. It just hurts my heart.  She’s come so far and yet I see the delays. She had trouble with skipping, (not on the left side); potty training has its own drama, and her inability to master a bicycle (like her brother).  I know these issues are hard on me but I know even though she doesn’t show it.
And then there’s Trent.  Recently we’ve noticed issues with his hearing (lot’s of what and uhh”), which drove me to hit the panic button for a hearing test.  Although I knew the results were fabulous today we got the written results.   Mild to moderate hearing loss.  Wow.   Mommy moment.  I knew this but yet- seeing it in type makes it hit home.  We have a plan to get him into ENT (and the mommy sense of urgency to get an appointment asap with help from our wonderful audiologist helped up get in) but still – it’s a moment.  He’s come so far and now this.
We’re are so proud of our babies and yet as much as we were told that we’d be totally caught up at two- you’re never really.  It just goes on.